Why all this?

Time before departure is always characterized by pondering. 8 Months is a long time in relation to an average life-expectancy. A time, I will leave my family and friends in order to live and work in another world. I will experience the environment in a different way, because the environment will be a different one as well as me. Combining life at fascinating places with the mission to do a good job is by no means always easy. More and more you loose contact to your home and the foreign culture will never really give you a new one. You will always be seen as an alien. You are lucky to see places and experience situations, other people have no chance to experience or cannot even comprehend. From your perspective everything is very exotic. You don´t get into it so easily and thus you discover and learn a bit more almost each day. All these are invaluable experiences I would never want to miss. But you are also exposed to higher demands of uncertainty-management. You have to arrange your personal relationships over high distances. You begin to live some kind of life between the worlds and you are never really at one place. Finally you even experience a shift of identity. You lose your roots and are always on the way. You become a transit personality. Airports receive a new significance, become interfaces, connecting your immediate past with your very next future. The final destination is not yet clear. I am still on the way. And surely it´s still what it was meant to be when the search had begun with a backpack on my shoulders on the way to Thailand a few years ago. A search for sense. Now I think that the contrasts that I have been experiencing on my journeys help me to widen my horizon, and that this is very essential, although it´s not easy, too. But all the images I am carrying with me finally led to my desire to work for a more meaningful thing. We all have already lost very much in the way we are living and working. We got blind and lost sensitivity for so many matters. It were the people I met, who taught me that we have to redevelop a more spiritual sense. Currently I try this. I try it by going there where it lacks even more and by finding my position in a world shaken by the forces of globalization. This mission requires every time, but I think that it´s important to keep on learning and to try to make use of the gained knowledge in order to improve things. I know that some of my friends feel neglegted, and might now keep the thought that I also got very blind over the last two years. I opened this blog in order not to loose contact to you – my friends – even though my material presence is marked by limitation as a result of the decision which I have made. I hope that these words may let you get an imagination of what the way that I am currently on means to me. It may sometimes seem so, but actually it is not just a big jet-set party. I am not sure what I will be doing in a few years, but I think that the way is already a goal. I have to keep it. And eventhough we don´t see each other often, it would be nice to share a part of that way with you.